I've had more than I can take.
I'm sorry that you don't understand how I feel.
My heart is heavy and my happiness is gone.

At first I did not think I would be excited to come back. Packing and moving and unpacking was so hectic and stressful. Rearranging my room, though, was quite theraputic :). It really sucks that Luis hasn't had a car since I have been here, but I've gotten to spend a lot of relaxing time with him at home. Feels nice. I also picked up a book today by Isabel Allende, recommended by my Nati. My goal is to be prepared for my two spanish courses this fall. I need to find a job that will allow me to work for 4 weeks, and it looks like my only hope is Publix. My summer to-do list includes tanning, working out, and preparing for recruitment. My time at home has gotten off to a great start. Summer A ended with a B+ in Managerial Accounting, which I needed for my major. Big relief! I have too much shopping to do and not looking forward to spending the money. I am very excited to get a little. Batman Begins is distracting me from this entry, so I will continue watching along with all the great trailers for The Dark Knight (can't wait to see it!) More updates to come. :)

It sure sucks being home and not seeing your boyfriend all day.
I go back to Gainesville tomorrow.
I need another sushi date with Nati this week.
Going to sleep.

trying to sleep is the hardest part.
i have the biggest knot in my stomach.

So I'm back in Gainesville and not liking the sleeping alone thing. Wind is out of control and I'm scared. I know, I'm a big baby. I really miss Luis. I wish I could see him everyday and sleep with him every night. :( One day...
Work and class in the AM. Hoping for a good start of the semester.

I miss you

I feel like I can never last more than 5 days without wanting to go back to school. I like being home and get so homesick when I'm up there, but I guess I can only take this place in small doses. My life in school is so different. I have the freedom a young woman who has successfully completed her second year of college should have, as opposed to here. I have amazing sisters that I already miss. The only thing that is not enjoyable is being apart from Luis. I just feel like I have nothing to do while I am here and I can't be productive in any way, (except in working on my tan of course lol) which gives me time to think about all my frustrations and worries and doubts. I need the busy daily routines I'm used to so I can just go and not look back. Spring semester went pretty well with 3 As and a B+. I was 5 points shy of an A in Financial Accounting, which was so upsetting. Looking forward to making up for it this summer. I want to be home as much as I can so that I can spend time with the people I care about the most. But I don't know if I should be selfish, as opposed to last summer, and focus on school and myself. I need to start doing more for me. Well, I'll be gone in 3 days. Let me know if you'd like to hang.

I have not been on here in ages, but I'm back. I must say my first year of college was a mixture of emotions, good, bad, ugly. However, I learned so much and I can honestly say I cannot wait to go back. Summer has not been so great. Hard times with friends, work, and school. But hey! I'll live.

I'm looking for a fresh start in life. I've made some mistakes in the past year and I have learned a lot from them. I really think I'm starting to grow up. I've let go of some things that were a big part of my life, but I needed to say goodbye. I am proud of myself.

To the few of you who have been here for me this summer, thank you.

More to come...
Vanessa

I'm leaving in 5 days and i must say that i'm so scared.
It's just weird that i can be so excited but so scared at the same time.
Tried to have a girls sleepover and hang out the other night and out of the about 6 people that said they would at least come by and hang out didn't show up or even call.
It really hurt, but what can i say?
I'm almost out of this place and I'm happy enough knowing that the 2 people that showed up are two of the best friends I could ever have.
Kaite and Alex, I love you guys.
Fran was unfortunately in Orlando, but she brought me a card and a sweet cd.
I love my twin.
Today was my last day at work.
It sucks because we just installed cool new registers and i was having fun with them.
Monday makes 8 months with Patrick.
I love him so much.
I'm going to miss the great things about this place and the people that feel like home to me.

So I can't remember the last time I've updated this thing, but tonight calls for some venting. (Not negatively)
I'm leaving in two weeks and I must say, I'm scared as fuck. (Pardon my language) I'm excited to experience and learn and be on my own, but I'm scared of saying goodbye. I'm on the verge of tears, and I don't know exactly what it's going to be like saying bye to all you crazy kids that I grew used to seeing everyday in school, eating lunch with, talking to on the phone, and everything else that comes along with a friendship. Now I know my time spent with everyone may have been limited throughout these years, but what can I say? I've lived with an over-protective mother who doesn't want her kid ending up like her. But that does not change the fact that each memorable moment spent with you all will remain in my heart. I know we're all going our separate ways and change is inevitable, whether it be for the better, and hopefully not for the worse. I hope to see as many of you guys as I can down the road. Good luck to all of you. I truly am going to miss each and everyone of you.

p.s.
Advanced Warning: water works on our last reunions

Happy Birthday Jordan Carver

Miss you much

Love you always

and forever.

 

<3 Vanessa