I've had more than I can take.
I'm sorry that you don't understand how I feel.
My heart is heavy and my happiness is gone.

At first I did not think I would be excited to come back. Packing and moving and unpacking was so hectic and stressful. Rearranging my room, though, was quite theraputic :). It really sucks that Luis hasn't had a car since I have been here, but I've gotten to spend a lot of relaxing time with him at home. Feels nice. I also picked up a book today by Isabel Allende, recommended by my Nati. My goal is to be prepared for my two spanish courses this fall. I need to find a job that will allow me to work for 4 weeks, and it looks like my only hope is Publix. My summer to-do list includes tanning, working out, and preparing for recruitment. My time at home has gotten off to a great start. Summer A ended with a B+ in Managerial Accounting, which I needed for my major. Big relief! I have too much shopping to do and not looking forward to spending the money. I am very excited to get a little. Batman Begins is distracting me from this entry, so I will continue watching along with all the great trailers for The Dark Knight (can't wait to see it!) More updates to come. :)

It sure sucks being home and not seeing your boyfriend all day.
I go back to Gainesville tomorrow.
I need another sushi date with Nati this week.
Going to sleep.

trying to sleep is the hardest part.
i have the biggest knot in my stomach.

So I'm back in Gainesville and not liking the sleeping alone thing. Wind is out of control and I'm scared. I know, I'm a big baby. I really miss Luis. I wish I could see him everyday and sleep with him every night. :( One day...
Work and class in the AM. Hoping for a good start of the semester.

I miss you

I feel like I can never last more than 5 days without wanting to go back to school. I like being home and get so homesick when I'm up there, but I guess I can only take this place in small doses. My life in school is so different. I have the freedom a young woman who has successfully completed her second year of college should have, as opposed to here. I have amazing sisters that I already miss. The only thing that is not enjoyable is being apart from Luis. I just feel like I have nothing to do while I am here and I can't be productive in any way, (except in working on my tan of course lol) which gives me time to think about all my frustrations and worries and doubts. I need the busy daily routines I'm used to so I can just go and not look back. Spring semester went pretty well with 3 As and a B+. I was 5 points shy of an A in Financial Accounting, which was so upsetting. Looking forward to making up for it this summer. I want to be home as much as I can so that I can spend time with the people I care about the most. But I don't know if I should be selfish, as opposed to last summer, and focus on school and myself. I need to start doing more for me. Well, I'll be gone in 3 days. Let me know if you'd like to hang.

I have not been on here in ages, but I'm back. I must say my first year of college was a mixture of emotions, good, bad, ugly. However, I learned so much and I can honestly say I cannot wait to go back. Summer has not been so great. Hard times with friends, work, and school. But hey! I'll live.

I'm looking for a fresh start in life. I've made some mistakes in the past year and I have learned a lot from them. I really think I'm starting to grow up. I've let go of some things that were a big part of my life, but I needed to say goodbye. I am proud of myself.

To the few of you who have been here for me this summer, thank you.

More to come...
Vanessa

I'm leaving in 5 days and i must say that i'm so scared.
It's just weird that i can be so excited but so scared at the same time.
Tried to have a girls sleepover and hang out the other night and out of the about 6 people that said they would at least come by and hang out didn't show up or even call.
It really hurt, but what can i say?
I'm almost out of this place and I'm happy enough knowing that the 2 people that showed up are two of the best friends I could ever have.
Kaite and Alex, I love you guys.
Fran was unfortunately in Orlando, but she brought me a card and a sweet cd.
I love my twin.
Today was my last day at work.
It sucks because we just installed cool new registers and i was having fun with them.
Monday makes 8 months with Patrick.
I love him so much.
I'm going to miss the great things about this place and the people that feel like home to me.

So I can't remember the last time I've updated this thing, but tonight calls for some venting. (Not negatively)
I'm leaving in two weeks and I must say, I'm scared as fuck. (Pardon my language) I'm excited to experience and learn and be on my own, but I'm scared of saying goodbye. I'm on the verge of tears, and I don't know exactly what it's going to be like saying bye to all you crazy kids that I grew used to seeing everyday in school, eating lunch with, talking to on the phone, and everything else that comes along with a friendship. Now I know my time spent with everyone may have been limited throughout these years, but what can I say? I've lived with an over-protective mother who doesn't want her kid ending up like her. But that does not change the fact that each memorable moment spent with you all will remain in my heart. I know we're all going our separate ways and change is inevitable, whether it be for the better, and hopefully not for the worse. I hope to see as many of you guys as I can down the road. Good luck to all of you. I truly am going to miss each and everyone of you.

p.s.
Advanced Warning: water works on our last reunions

Happy Birthday Jordan Carver

Miss you much

Love you always

and forever.

 

<3 Vanessa

school is overrated
or maybe just calculus.

i want to graduate
but i love my friends

i'm desperate to know my future
i'll know in a few weeks

X fingers crossed

My new, Bomb Ass, Red Hot, Homecoming Dress....

 

( Now this is more Midnight Mardi Gras fo yo ass! )

Senior Superlatives was fun. Thanks to everyone who came. I had a great time doing the music. Congrats to all the winners and nominees as well. And thanks everyone who voted me falcon of the year. it was cool.
make sure you guys buy your homecoming tickets next week!!!
it's going to be a lot of fun.
1 dollar from every ticket purchased will go to the salvation army for hurricane relief.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Stay safe.

I hate school
I hate stress
I'm home cuz i don't feel good.
But i love KT and our ice cream. :)
Thanks for making me feel better last night.
Zeller is a dueche.
It's not like i didn't go to class cuz i was smoking in the bathroom.
I need help in Calculus.
I feel like a fucking idiot
and to top it all off, I don't think I'm going to get into UF.
I'm gonna go break something now.
Thanks
<3 Nessa

Things have been alright. Not too much of a good day yesterday, but seeing everyone last night made me feel better minus the goodbye part. But I wish everyone the best of luck in all they do. I hope you all stay safe and I'll miss you. My Cool Kid made me very happy last night. Besides my love life being non-existant, and some great friends going off to greater things, I got the best news today. Luis Benitez is moving back down here and is going to be attending FHS with us. I couldn't have been any more happier and I can't wait to see him. But yea, this year is going to rock. I love you all, and i hope everyone is enjoying their senior year as much as I am.

I must say that this week has been incredible. I love my teachers and my classes. I love SGA and how everyone is ready to get the year going. I love everything. Things are pretty good with me right now. I'm really happy. But of course, I'm going to be sad saying bye to my Cool Kid that I love so much. :( and the rest of you as well, my hottieee, and love of my life. Gonna miss everyone. But senior year will kick ass and I'm excited for it. Looking forward to Homecoming, Senior Superlatives, and all that other traditional stuff. Makes me happy. Well, that is all for now.
Love ya,
Nessa

So here are my classes, comment if you have any with me:

1st sememster-
Calculus
Leadership
AP Lit
AP Psych

2nd semester-
AP Cal AB
Beg Weight Training
Chemistry Honors
French 2

So i've been at school all week and i'm actually excited for school to start. But thats just because it's my senior year. Can't wait to see everyone. It's going to be a great year, because of course we have the best SGA and Senior Class officers. Yeaaa bitches. Well, peace out!

nessa

Yo yo,
Mic check 1 2 1 2
Yo my name is Vanessa and I'm a hardcore bitch,
I'm not a preppy ho who wears Abercrombie and Fitch! (JK!)
I take it easy breezy, lemon squeezy,
But don't get close to me acting all cheesy.
I'll get Presidential on you in a jiffy,
I'm a history geek who likes to say, "Spiffy."
But don't be fooled, I'm a gagnsta at heart,
A regular shopper at the Carol City Wal-Mart.
With a gun in my left hand and M&Ms on the right,
I watch Sex and the City on Tuesday nights.
Play some music for me cuz I like to dance,
My friend Toni-Ann has a boyfriend named Lance.
Word up to the COOL KIDS just like me,
I got my kite stuck in a tree.
I like playing manhunt on dark scary nights,
Epstein's house was just exterminated for termites.
So this is the end of my rhyme cuz I gotta dip,
My mom's got my chocolate milk ready and I'm about to take a sip.

Word to your mother.
Love Vanessa

I must say that tonight at Kaite's was the most fun I have had in a long time. I had to let loose. It's been way too long. Mhm. Suprised some people, danced, and had a kick ass time. It's all good though. Nice to see some people, Anthony, Jackie, Fred, and others... We broke it down tonight. Lost my phone for about half an hour, then Alex found it!! Saw War of the Worlds before Kaite's, it was really good. Tonight was by far the best night in a long time. Cool kid, I'm sorry you weren't here to share the moment with me. lol. Next time we'll show em how cool kids do it. :) Hope everyone has arrived safely at home. Love you.

Mwa,
Nessa